Holy Clashing Colours!
I am she
In honour of this week’s GLAMAZING episode of Game of Thrones, I present a couple of fanarts. Been very slowly working through my issues with art. Fanart helps.
Also wanna say thanks to the folks who reached out to me on my last post. Really appreciate it guys <3
I’m having some awful trouble creating. Every time I attempt to put pencil to paper (or digital pen to tablet) I’m overwhelmed with a rush of terror, a combination of fear of failure, pressure to create perfection and a genuine lack of ideas. I can’t shake the feeling that whatever I’m going to create will be an automatic failure, so I don’t bother at all. It’s felt for a while that every piece I create is some sort of a bid for the future. Either my next piece will be the one piece that proves to the world that I’m worth something, the one that finally turns the heads of people who had never before even given my work a second thought. The one piece that’ll show ‘em all.
I think that’s the biggest problem in my thinking. So much of my motivation is based in proving myself. So many people have written me off as not worth acknowledging. It cuts me deeper than most. I never let myself forget a slight and react by creating. I stop creating for the enjoyment of it, stop creating for the expression but instead create to show them just how wrong they were to ignore me.
Though now years have passed and the ones who looked down on me are still correct. I never showed anyone. And now the bitterness and ugly drive to prove myself has left a slow, sediment-like build up of negative feelings, as if from harmless drops of water to a solid stalagmite built up of terror, guilt, failure, all towards just drawing a bloody picture.
Realistically, I’m never going to prove the haters wrong. I may never turn those heads. I’m now left with what to to going forward. That bit… leaves me stumped.
Maki Miyako, Takahashi Macoto, etc.
I want these things.
No, I understand it just fine and would appreciate not being condescended to by being told that my disagreement stems from a lack of comprehension. I’m not a child.
I’m saying that it is unreasonable to say that female-on-female interaction between each…
Some people really don’t seem to get what the Bechdel test is for.
The Bechdel test is simply a way of looking at the overall content of media and bringing to light how often female characters are relegated to the role of designated love interest or sort or ‘cheerleaders’ to the male protagonists who actually do stuff. It also helps highlight how in many cases, female characters are rivals for the attention of men and this colours every interaction they have. Case in point: How almost no disney heroines have female friends (they all instead have pets, usually male) and other female characters tend to regard them with contempt due to jealousy; also harmful because it teaches girls that they should be enemies with other women rather than allies and compete for the best man as though men are the only thing of value in a woman’s life! (yes, in the old days, getting a rich husband was necessary for a woman to have a comfortable life, but this attitude is now outdated).
Failing the Bechdel test doesn’t necessarily make something a bad movie or book- Fellowship of the Ring. Passing it doesn’t make something a good movie or book- Twilight. Always remember that and don’t get butthurt if something you like fails; it doesn’t make you a bad person!
Occasionally, somebody may create something that fails the test, and that’s okay, not every story calls for two female characters who talk to each other. Maybe there aren’t enough characters, maybe it takes place on the front lines of WWI and there wouldn’t realistically be any women. BUT…. when you look at the content of media overall, and particularly media which contains a large cast of characters, there is a troubling lack of texts (and I use text in the literary sense to refer to books, games, films etc. not just prose) which contain two women who talk to each other and not about a male character and all the cool stuff he’s doing and how hot he is. ie. women playing a role other than a trophy or an accessory to make the male protagonist seem desirable/not gay, or to reward his hard work.
What the test is NOT for is judging individual conversations and calling them irrelevant. It is literally a quick, rough, casual test for raising awareness of how in media overall, there is a lack of female characters and a lack of substance for those female roles. It is there to remind people that they should think about what they’re creating and whether they’re making yet another story about men doing things while women stand by and fawn over them- or a story with one super awesome female character who all the guys think is wonderful but who never even speaks to any other women in the story, apart from for them to express jealousy about all the sexy guys who fancy her- and if they are, maybe stop and ponder: do all these characters need to be male? Or could you do more with those female characters that you have?
Hear hear. Couldn’t have said it better myself, Kate.